Wednesday, January 14, 2009
glimpses of things to come
Really, there are just those moments, those few fleeting moments for a few seconds when I see the loving, compassionate, caring, little people my children are growing into. Moments that I cherish when days like yesterday happen. Moments that I cling to when I feel like I want to run out the door (ok, yes, stay at home mommies like to run from their jobs too sometimes....just in case any of you were in doubt.) Glimpses into the future of sharing and caring, loving and protecting - I try to savor each second. These two beautiful babies love each other. They really do. I know it. They know it. They can't go to bed without saying good night and blowing kisses - or have one leave and the other will search the house for the missing buddy - or pull each other by the hand to go play. But they are 3 and 1. Both at the peak of "me-ness" and sharing is not always easy. God love 'em - they try, but sometimes it's just downright hard to let someone play with your favorite Thomas train, or let your big brother ride in your favorite pink push along buggy car you got for Christmas. They are best friends, yet arch enemies.Recently they were playing nicely in Hudson's room together and they were giggling and enjoying time together - ahhh....peace, for a few minutes. I heard a sudden cry from Anna, and I let her go for a few seconds before I quietly walked down the hall to see what happened. It wasn't urgent, it sounded like a "I'm hurt but not too bad" cry. As I peeked around the corner, my heart overflowed with mommy proudness. Hudson had sat on the train table and Anna had laid her head in his lap while she cried. She was whimpering and he was patting her back saying, "it's ok banana, it's ok. You'll be better soon." (I can hear the collective "awwww"!). And yes, it was at this moment that I imprinted on my brain, a moment I will try to never forget in the next few months, because assuredly those days will come when someone will push all my buttons (oh yea - my buttons get pushed - and I'm patient, but everyone has their point)....I'll savor it, pull it out of my "favorite memories movies" in my head, and I'll play it to myself. Man, I love these glimpses of things to come....I just hope that it doesn't come too quickly.